Yazan: Remziye 10.10.2008 – 16:41:16 Size bir\u015fey diyim mi. Ciddi anlamda akl\u0131m\u0131 kaybetme korkusu ve her ne ya\u015farsam ya\u015fayay\u0131m beynimin ve y\u00fcre\u011fimin arka plan\u0131nda bir burukluk ve istedi\u011fime kavu\u015famaman\u0131n verdi\u011fi…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_bbp_topic_count":0,"_bbp_reply_count":0,"_bbp_total_topic_count":0,"_bbp_total_reply_count":0,"_bbp_voice_count":0,"_bbp_anonymous_reply_count":0,"_bbp_topic_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_reply_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_forum_subforum_count":0},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.mucize.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/320"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.mucize.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.mucize.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.mucize.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.mucize.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=320"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.mucize.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/320\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.mucize.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=320"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.mucize.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=320"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.mucize.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=320"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
\n10.10.2008 – 16:41:16<\/span>
\nSize bir\u015fey diyim mi. Ciddi anlamda akl\u0131m\u0131 kaybetme korkusu ve her ne ya\u015farsam ya\u015fayay\u0131m beynimin ve y\u00fcre\u011fimin arka plan\u0131nda bir burukluk ve istedi\u011fime kavu\u015famaman\u0131n verdi\u011fi o his \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc resmen arzuluyor. Nas\u0131l bir muammad\u0131r anlam\u0131\u015f de\u011filim. Yaln\u0131z \u00e7ok ac\u0131. Daha \u00e7ok k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ya\u015flarda allh\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7ok seviyorum. ben ne zaman denencem ona sevgimi nas\u0131l g\u00f6stercem bak hi\u00e7 bi\u015fey ge\u00e7emeyecek derken \u015fimdi dua ederken ayn\u0131 niyete ellerim a\u00e7\u0131lmaz oluyo. Bu mah\u00e7upluk \u00f6lmek i\u00e7in yetmezmi. Kafan ruhun kar\u0131\u015f\u0131k daha ne ya\u015fad\u0131\u011fn\u0131 anlamadan. apans\u0131z\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm geldi\u011finde haz\u0131rl\u0131ks\u0131z yakalan\u0131p yenik d\u00fc\u015fmenin azab\u0131 ise cabas\u0131 \u00f6yle bi \u00e7\u0131kmazday\u0131mki ayr\u0131ca bu y\u0131l iki y\u0131l \u00f6nce yada ba\u015fka bi\u015fey de\u011fil. kendimi bildim bileli. ama \u015funu biliyorum. buda bi s\u0131nav bunu hissettiren bu sava\u015f\u0131 i\u00e7ime verende rabbim.yap\u0131lacak n e var bilimyorum duadan ba\u015fkada ne olabilirki. ediyorum ama \u00fczg\u00fcn\u00fcm ki art\u0131k sanki krizi gelen insanlara verilen morfinim( duam ) bile yetersiz kal\u0131yomu\u015f gibi.\u00d6l\u00fcm i\u00e7in dua etmenin neresinde hay\u0131r var demeyin bence. \u0130nsanlar\u0131n alay edebilecek kapasitede bi insan olmaktansa. yada ne bilim y aaa allah kat\u0131nda ve kendine kald\u0131\u011f\u0131nda ruhun hala isted\u011fine ula\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in ayr\u0131ca engelleyemedi\u011fi d\u00fcnyevi bi arzu i\u00e7in ne yaz\u0131kki bence \u00f6l\u00fcm daha hay\u0131rl\u0131d\u0131r. ve umar\u0131m olur. Allah benim gibilere yard\u0131m etsin. dileklerini ya\u015fats\u0131nda yaln\u0131z ve isyankar b\u0131rakmas\u0131n onlar\u0131. \u0130nan\u0131n insan\u0131n sadece bedeni de\u011fil ruhuda kanser oluyo. ve ben sanc\u0131lar\u0131 kesecek anl\u0131k a\u011fr\u0131 kesicileri istemiyorum art\u0131k ne yaz\u0131kki..\u00a0 \ud83d\ude41<\/p>\nB\u00fcy\u00fck bir s\u0131navday\u0131z.<\/a><\/h3>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"