{"id":318,"date":"2008-11-26T05:04:42","date_gmt":"2008-11-26T03:04:42","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.mucize.net\/blog\/?p=318"},"modified":"2008-11-26T05:04:42","modified_gmt":"2008-11-26T03:04:42","slug":"rahmetin-buyuktur-allahim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.mucize.net\/blog\/rahmetin-buyuktur-allahim.html","title":{"rendered":"Rahmetin b\u00fcy\u00fckt\u00fcr Allah&#8217;\u0131m."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Yazan: <strong>Remziye<\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Yaz\u0131lma vakti:<strong>10.10.2008 &#8211; 17:28:13 <\/strong><\/p>\n<p>Bana rahmetlilerin en rahmetlisi olarak tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131lan Allah&#8217;\u0131m. Korkarak de\u011filde severek yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m rabbim. Her\u015feyin sonucu sana ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015fken kapama kap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131ki ben ahmakl\u0131k yapmak zorunda kal\u0131p ba\u015fka \u015feyler aray\u0131p ba\u011flanmayay\u0131m. \u00c7aresizlik sessizlik anlayamamazl\u0131k verme. \u0130nsan\u0131n nefsi ile denenmesi ne zormu\u015f ya rabbim. Ba\u015fka bi\u015feye gerek yok hatta d\u00fcnyaya. \u0130nsan kendine yetiyo, kahretmeye \u00f6ld\u00fcrmeye. Kendimi bildim bileli ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ayn\u0131 senaryodan beni kim kurtarabilir. Kainat\u0131n senaristli\u011fini yapm\u0131\u015fken sen. Hem ba\u015fka ne \u00e7are varki. Diledim bekledim ve olmad\u0131. Var\u0131\u015f nereye d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f hep ayn\u0131 sana. Dilettiren vermeyen d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc olan Her\u015fey heryer hertaraf sana iken. O \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fin ama t\u00fcm insanlara \u00e7ok zor gelen m\u00fcbarek isimlerinden sab\u0131r ismi ile deneme in\u015fallah. Kendi ad\u0131ma \u00e7ok zor gelmekte.Belki ba\u015farmaktay\u0131m ba\u015fard\u0131m bi\u00e7ok kez kay\u0131plar\u0131m oldu. Sevdi\u011fim nice insanlar\u0131 g\u00f6mmek zorunda kald\u0131m kalbime de bir kabir oldu i\u00e7imde. Ey rabbim a\u011f\u0131r gelmekte demek istemem. \u0130sterimki onlar ne ki kimki hatta istemek dahi istemezdim. Ama gel g\u00f6rki kulum ve \u00fczg\u00fcn\u00fcm ki dayanam\u0131yorum art\u0131k. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc hep ayn\u0131 yakar\u0131\u015fla kap\u0131na geldi\u011fimde. Bir an olup geri gitmesi, yada hi\u00e7 cevap gelmemesi( cevap senin diledi\u011fin \u015fekillerde kim bilir ka\u00e7 kez gelmi\u015ftir ) lakin diledi\u011fim i\u00e7imi yakan nedenle alakal\u0131 beni bitkin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc kendime hayata ve umut, beklenti,istek kalmad\u0131. Sen dua ediniz kabul edeyim. Kulumun ellerini bo\u015f \u00e7evirmekten haya ederim diyecek kadar merhametli ve b\u00fcy\u00fckken. L\u00fctfen l\u00fctfen l\u00fctfen Allah\u0131m belki g\u00fcnahkar sayd\u0131n isyankar belkide. Ac\u0131 evet ama \u00fczerimde s\u0131rf senin kulun oldu\u011fum i\u00e7in zerre misali merhametin ve rahmetin varsa. onun y\u00fcz\u00fc suyu h\u00fcrmetine, habibinin. senin hazinen geni\u015f ben aciz her kul gibi bir kulum. sana sunacak hi\u00e7 bi\u015feyim yok. istemeye y\u00fcz\u00fcm dahi yokken. Ama olurya in\u015fallah merhamet duyars\u0131n ve bana nasip edersin art\u0131k \u00e7ok ge\u00e7meden dile\u011fimi. Ne kadar umut kalmasada tesbih olmu\u015f dilime sana yakar\u0131\u015f y\u00fczs\u00fcz bi dilenci misali. Vermedi diye kendi kendime k\u0131zsamda. y\u00fcz\u00fcme kapansada \u00e7aresiz \u00f6lene dek kap\u0131nday\u0131m \u00f6ld\u00fckten sonrada. L\u00fctfen allah\u0131m tut ya\u015flanm\u0131\u015f ruhumun derin yaralar\u0131n\u0131 ve bir dokun. senin bir dokunu\u015fun yeter yarabbim. Ba\u015fka \u00e7arem yok.. Ben seni hep iyi bilirim.\u015eeytan\u0131n dahi duas\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131yamete kadar kabul edecek kadar. Bana neden rabbim dedirtme allah\u0131m amin amin amin&#8230;.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Yazan: Remziye Yaz\u0131lma vakti:10.10.2008 &#8211; 17:28:13 Bana rahmetlilerin en rahmetlisi olarak tan\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131lan Allah&#8217;\u0131m. Korkarak de\u011filde severek yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m rabbim. Her\u015feyin sonucu sana ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015fken kapama kap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131ki ben ahmakl\u0131k yapmak zorunda kal\u0131p ba\u015fka&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_bbp_topic_count":0,"_bbp_reply_count":0,"_bbp_total_topic_count":0,"_bbp_total_reply_count":0,"_bbp_voice_count":0,"_bbp_anonymous_reply_count":0,"_bbp_topic_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_reply_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_forum_subforum_count":0},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.mucize.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/318"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.mucize.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.mucize.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.mucize.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.mucize.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=318"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.mucize.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/318\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.mucize.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=318"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.mucize.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=318"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.mucize.net\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=318"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}